Lately...

Lately, I've been having a lot of moments with X where I think, "It will never be just us again...we will never have this moment between us in the very same way." It's not a bad thing...life is about to get doubly sweet. But, when we are reading stories before a nap, and X leans his sweet tired head on my chest, I rub his little blonde curls and think about how things are going to change. I hope I handle it well. I hope I give Xavier just as much love so that he doesn't feel slighted in any way. I hope I can divide my time evenly and fairly. I have faith that it will all fall into place...I think.

Come February, we will be a family of 4!!! It is so unbelievable sometimes, and I don't know if I'm quite ready to be honest. Is that terrible to admit? I know I will love the little peanut from the first second I see him. I know our hearts will multiply and there will be enough love to go around a gazillion times. I know that I want a big family. I want X to have siblings that he can share his life with. BUT - can we just stop time for a second? How has 17 months already gone by? How has my little tiny baby X become a 1 1/2 year old walking, talking, dancing miracle? All in the blink of an eye...

I think of Ferris Bueller..."Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." Best movie ever. Bueller, Bueller...Anyone?  Anyone? Ok - I digress. My point? There is no time for worry, stress, or negativity. Don't let it seep in...no matter how hard it tries - and it tries hard for sure. Focus on the amazingness of every minute...even the little mundane minutes...they are often the best ones.

I'm taking the opportunity this Advent season to savor every second, to be grateful for all of our blessings, and to prepare for the new precious addition awaiting us just over the horizon.